I’m so tired of this disconnect. I’m sick of being me. Intelligence, empathy, heart… proper diction and grammar… it’s all worthless. It’s all rubbish. Nobody cares, nobody needs it. All it does is mess up your life and set you up for failure.

I’m tired.

I think I might have gone crazy. I frikkin’ wish I knew why I am this way. But it just happens. Out of the blue, it just happens. It feels like if I don’t get this off my chest, I’ll explode. It’s so ridiculous. I can’t frikkin’ believe it.

2nd EDIT:

If this wasn’t so freaking sad, this would actually be really funny.  Too bad I can’t tell you guys what happened.  Cause Lord knows I’m never living this one down.  Haha.  God, I read way too into things.  I always think people are being less than honest with me and I come up with weird, paranoid, Machiavellian scenarios about everything.